a love letter to James...

i wrote this in the morning
 darling
the morning

when sunshine poured  through my windows....
and
 i thought about my layers.
..darling...
my layers
my depth
and how i have shown you my good
bad
whiskey nights
fighting
you
a pearl in my eye for you
i know
yes...
 im drinking again
cause
 i cant cleanse you out of this house
your scent is in the walls
smelling you that night
brought tears
i reached for my knife....
then i thought of your arms
and
 my breath became quick
 i held the silver tight
and
i cried for you
i sang for you
all in my kitchen
humming to sleep
when will you come back to me
so i can rest....                                  

Love, Charlie Mae